More than 2 years ago, I started to practice yoga in a fitness centre. During those days, I observe all the other people and were rolling my eyes at them. I feel that inside the studio is a 'Battle ground'. I feel that everyone is ready to 'fight' to show off their out of this world skills. That's why I always put excessive effort so others won't think I'm a beginner.
After 6 months of pure basic practice in the fitness centre I moved to a Yoga Studio. In the studio you will see different types of body. Some people are flexible but no strength, others are strong but no flexibility and of course you will see both flexible and strong yoga practitioners. During my first months in the studio, my asanas are progressing but not my inner self. I became more observant and trying hard to become the most flexible, the strongest and the best. It came to the point that I am hurting myself because I'm forcing and rushing to move into a pose, I'm hurting myself because I want to be the number 1, I'm forcing myself because I feel that Yoga is a competition.
At some point in time, I don't feel good about myself anymore, I feel that there are so many 'better' inside the room and I am the 'bitter' gourd. I was not contented. Because of too much effort, the practice became too tiring and it came to a certain extent that I'm not happy to practice.
Then I came into a realization. I looked into myself and realized all my weaknesses, all the things that I need to improve both physical and inner self. During those moments I slowly understand my own capabilities - both good and not so, Understanding myself made me understand other people's capabilities. I learned that one simple tightness in the body can affect to so much in so many asanas. I learned to become more open to others in the studio, share what I know and learn from others in return.
The consciousness of 'Better' and 'Bitter' suddenly deteriorated unless there are '$@#^' in the room. I started to laugh and feel the I 'belong' to a group of people who only came to the studio to practice. The practices became fun even though some of the classes are tough. I felt real happiness and always looking forward to attend a class. The 'Yoga Competition' is no more, it was replaced with a 'Laughing and Positive Yoga Practice'. Everything became light and beautiful. After all what you show to people, will reflect to you.
This journey help me realized so many things. Not only to let go of the ego but also knowing own strengths to know what other people had gone through to become strong. Know your own weaknesses so you know others pain. And most importantly not to think how to become somebody else, instead think how to become a better version of 'You'.
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After 6 months of pure basic practice in the fitness centre I moved to a Yoga Studio. In the studio you will see different types of body. Some people are flexible but no strength, others are strong but no flexibility and of course you will see both flexible and strong yoga practitioners. During my first months in the studio, my asanas are progressing but not my inner self. I became more observant and trying hard to become the most flexible, the strongest and the best. It came to the point that I am hurting myself because I'm forcing and rushing to move into a pose, I'm hurting myself because I want to be the number 1, I'm forcing myself because I feel that Yoga is a competition.
At some point in time, I don't feel good about myself anymore, I feel that there are so many 'better' inside the room and I am the 'bitter' gourd. I was not contented. Because of too much effort, the practice became too tiring and it came to a certain extent that I'm not happy to practice.
Then I came into a realization. I looked into myself and realized all my weaknesses, all the things that I need to improve both physical and inner self. During those moments I slowly understand my own capabilities - both good and not so, Understanding myself made me understand other people's capabilities. I learned that one simple tightness in the body can affect to so much in so many asanas. I learned to become more open to others in the studio, share what I know and learn from others in return.
The consciousness of 'Better' and 'Bitter' suddenly deteriorated unless there are '$@#^' in the room. I started to laugh and feel the I 'belong' to a group of people who only came to the studio to practice. The practices became fun even though some of the classes are tough. I felt real happiness and always looking forward to attend a class. The 'Yoga Competition' is no more, it was replaced with a 'Laughing and Positive Yoga Practice'. Everything became light and beautiful. After all what you show to people, will reflect to you.
This journey help me realized so many things. Not only to let go of the ego but also knowing own strengths to know what other people had gone through to become strong. Know your own weaknesses so you know others pain. And most importantly not to think how to become somebody else, instead think how to become a better version of 'You'.
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